It has been quite a long time since I have become so moody during work. There is so much uncertainty between me and CC. Sometimes I cannot feel that loving feeling any more. But why? We went to Walmart together and it all seems to sparkle again. I hope we can still ‘sparkle’ after her boyfriend has left.
God, I love that girl.
What an interesting weekend. I went off alone to venture Jakarta. After all, it is not such a bad place. Went to Gym and met with CC and her boyfriend. Man, I miss that girl.
Called up JP and had a nice chat (in Cantonese) …
Wonder what will happen between me and CC.
Long time haven’t logged down what I have done. Well, I just go crazy over CC and I hope she loves me too. Besides the … I have in my life, we feel very happy and comfortable with each other. Just that her boyfriend has arrived in Jakarta, I seldom get to hold and kiss her. And I really miss her nowadays. Last night I could not sleep. Life has once again become so unpredictable.
TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!
Yep, my birthday.
Had a few birthday emails and the ladies in our team have bought me a birthday cake. Also had a lunch appointment with the BUN (functional?) team. A very nice restaurant serving Indonesian food. I was travelling with two ladies (even eating) and it was easy at all. Must try to be fair to Balqais and CC. Hence when I took food, I served the left and right first (or right and left).
And at night, I dined with CC. Just the two of us.
Many reasons to love here. Many.
Tonight (after midnight already), I turned 1 year older. And I was with CC. Neither one of us realised that, of course.
For the whole day, I have been thinking of her. I think I have already fallen in love with her and in less than a week’s time, I will lose her again.
The start of a heartbreak is coming, how nice.
Such a confusing situation.
Sigh.
Two days before birthday and I have committed one terrible mistake.
I …
But CC and her boyfriend really love each other. She intends to marry to him. Oh, what have I done?
But I do love her. Does that count?
Okay, how shall I confess?
To confess the wrongdoing of my heart or the wrongdoing of my soul?
I have just followed my heart and that is what I end up with. Knowing that CC has a devoted boyfriend, going to see her very soon, how could I end up in …
Knowing that this well is so deep that a step forward will end up dead at the bottom, why would I just fall in love, like that again?
Must be – using one pain to cover another one.
This weekend, I have spent a lot of time with CC. I feel myself strongly attractive to her. But she has a very devoted boyfriend and I shall never even think about that at all.
Saturday night, she stayed at my apartment and watched TV together. We chatted quite a lot and … what a pity. Must be from the complex family background.
Today is US Independent Day. Only when we went to Hard Rock Café did we realize it.
Okay, woke up late and didn’t feel very well. Decided to see a doctor and ended up seeing one of the doctor in the apartment. Interesting to know that even the doctor refuses to take the ice cube in the restaurant and he even suggested to wash the apple with warm water.
Took one day off and went out for shopping. Spent most of the day watching MTV.
The best was yet to come. That was our (Kenneth, CC, and I) first time visit to Hard Rock Café. Had a delicious meal (the most decent place in Jakarta) and they left the place just when the live band appeared. For me, I stayed on and danced till two in the morning.
Only when I stepped into the taxi did I feel scared. I mean just me alone, and single and the driver (to me a small boy under eighteen) kept on telling me that the strip show is very exciting so on.
I am a decent guy right? Must live up to my decent reputation.
Today feel very sick. Stomachache and headache as well. The air con is so cold in the office. I was actually suffering all the way.
What a bad day.