Weekend again. As always, woke up really late. This time is about five in the late afternoon. Gone out for an Italian restaurant. The food was good. Wanted to watch a movie but I had too much alcohol.
I do need a lover.
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Love is Strong?
Today I was totally immersed in boredom. Think of what to do was really a pain. Therefore I decided to write the weekly status report instead. Really couldn’t spend the whole day doing it and hence, spent the rest of the day reading the VTF menu volume one. Kind of a daft thing to do but hey, what the hack!
First thing in the morning, I called up Ginger. Thought I have given her enough nightmare. Just an apology. This whole thing is a total bad experience. Guess one has to go through some tough time (and decision) from time to time.
Received an email from my sister this morning. A bit worry about whether George and her will work out. I mean, I don’t really know that guy that well. And he doesn’t like taking photo with my sister. As said by her, probably only less than 10 photos. Kind of sad. I think I should write her a nice email explaining some sense into her mind.
From next week onwards, I will be working like a refugee (hey, today was spring cleaning). As there will be a new guy coming in especially for the MUE project, I will lose my crappy working place. And I have to work in another office. Pretty sad again.
I knocked off at 5:45 and Claude took me for a nice walk showing me all the nice places. Somehow I started off the topic about girlfriend and he told me that he has lost his girlfriend after his Sydney trip. Pretty sad (again), isn’t it? I understand that he has been with this girl for 1 year and she told him that she is not good enough for him and so on. And she has been avoiding him lately. Very similar story. How come when it comes to the breakup, the girl is always the gentle one?
As for Laurent, few days ago, he told me that he was married. He looked kind of young and I was in shock. He then told me that his marriage has only lasted for a few months and he wife has left France. What is love? Kind of fragile, isn’t it? (As quoted from my sister) But now, Laurent is with another girl.
These strike me really hard. Is it really so hard to maintain a relationship, I am asking myself. Does it mean that love never conquer distance? I always think that love should be strong enough to withstand just anything.
As for Aurore, she once had a boyfriend but he lived very far away from her. In the end, after influenced by the people in the office, she has broken off from her lover.
Distance.
Back to what I have done tonight. I went out with some of the BNP team and had dinner near the Sacred Heart Church. Very impressed by the way I talk. I mean I could never make any decent long conversation before. Munchie (nake name) told me that I am very different from HK guy and Singapore guy. In the end, he told me it is the value that is different.
Went to Champs-Elysees, Virgin Mega Store and bought the new Depeche Mode CD.
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So I Had Raw Beef
I felt so different today. I have a new haircut and I wore contact lens. Totally different and in such a jolly mood.
Received the reply from Benny, hence my feeling drops a bit.
Composed an email back to the office and it was kind of a complain.
Went into a bar kind of restaurant. Ordered a set menu and had started of the day. When the waiter tried to explain to me what it was, he told me that it was beef with vegetable on top. In fact, the beef was raw. Totally raw. Guess I can take the Steak Tartar now! I was so worried that the chicken in mushroom sauce was raw as well. Lucky it wasn’t.
Have to busy reply to my friends.
Last night I slept very late having online chat with a lot of great guys. Somehow we went into the topic of writing literature, and this UK guy “Dead Calm” and I was talking about Swan Lake (one lady elegant, educated with American culture called Swan). And we wrote a lot of stuffs online. Finally I posted one of my message “Death Marriage” out and some guys even chatted with me privately and asked me who is author and so on. I was so thrill and was really in joy.
Towards the end, I was chatting was an American woman and she suggested to have phone sex today. And I didn’t call.
Therefore, I woke up feeling pretty bad. Logged onto Notes and found that the office rejected my holiday plan (of paying). Even I was worried that I do not possess a valid visa to USA. What a bad day!
One more thing, a very bizarre dream. I dreamt of visiting my ex. I knocked onto the door and found two women inside her room. It was kind of an authentic place. Small room with wooden furniture. A small bed with bed light. A table and a very decent window. It must be evening. I asked for my ex. One of the women asked another one to leave the room and vaguely she (the one who remained in the room) told me that my ex had left and would not want to see me.
Then she told me I can sleep on the right side of the bed while she would talk the left side. And suddenly a drop dead beautiful (white) lady who dressed like an angel came into the room. Talked to me but I hardly remember what she said! All I could remember was she was very pleasant.
And she left the room. My ex walked in. She looked so thin! And she sat down by the bed. I sat next to her and began to chat. And she looked darker as well. I touched her fingers and all a sudden, I found that she was actually me!
And I woke up.
I asked Mohamed and he has no answer for me.
Today I told Mohamed in a very convincing voice: I want to go home. Really, I am tired of being in Paris. I miss JP a lot. Tonight after a dinner at my favorite restaurant, I thought of buying my friends presents (budget FF1,000) and I want to buy JP one too. Oh, I miss her. If only life works out differently.
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Friends to Confide In
This morning was such a good start. Francis called me up at 8 and I had a nice good chat with him. Basically, his advise was to remain in VTF until promotion. He is currently into J P Morgan project doing some Year 2000 enhancements. He would love to bring me in but he is thinking about my future as well. Nice guy.
Had enough sleep, that’s the key to start a good day. This morning, I had nothing to do so I went up to see Lionel and discussed with the Functional Team about MUE. I think “New Sophie” is quite charming.
Had lunch with Mohamed and we ate pizza. Had dinner with him again and ate Tunisian food. That guy is seriously thinking of quitting the firm and I do not object his doing so. I mean he has not been treated correctly. Screwed up management, that is.
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25 More Man-days in Paris
Monday, status report again. This time, I think I am quite nasty towards the Function Team as I am really not happy about the reliability SIR. Guess they got the message. Damn me. I should have some self-control but I think there has been too much stress, especially between the Technical and Function Team. And I am somehow swallowed into this whirlpool.
Had a heart to heart chat with Mohamed after work and found that he has found 2 contracts. Good for him. One is to develop compiler and linker for object orientated programming for AS4000. Bizarre! Another is project management for Electronic Documentation.
Had a nice Japanese food again. This time, the staffs know me and gave me quite a huge portion. The beauty of this is to be able to converse in Cantonese.
Somehow tonight, I kind of dreaming that JP will write me an email as ask if she can come back to my arm again. I still cannot forget, can I?
25 more man days in Paris and I am gone. Time passes, isn’t it?
Woke up really late. In fact if “room service” never called me this afternoon, I would have slept a little bit longer. As usual, had my “standard” lunch which is cheese and bread, fruit salad, a cup of tea and this time, a glass of Martini as well. What a wonderful life.
Spent the whole day writing up a document on MUE for William. Took me several hours to do it. But after all, I don’t have anything better to do anyway. Called up Grace and had a dinner with her. We went to a very nice restaurant and really wanted to try the Steak Tartar but had rump steak in pepper source instead.
Woke up at ten. First time in history because Cecile invited me for a lunch at her place. I mean Cecile is quite a woman. French woman and truly feminine. I have never seem someone as feminine as her. Wow! She is slim with 2 kids (and not married!). Her boyfriend come home once in a week (I guess) and she has to take care of 2 kids of theirs. Quite incredible. And she reads a lot of books as well and she knows quite a number of poems.
That makes me wonder who shall be my partner of life. She would be ideally:
- Feminine
- Love children
- Have strong opinion of her own (and clever)
- Like to read and appreciate literature (hopefully be artistic)
- Give me security and love me
- Get along well with my family
- Love nature
Cecile’s friend is a civil engineer and he has got a wife and a kid as well. Hence throughout the whole Saturday afternoon, I was with three kids. Do I like kids at all? Maybe I do love to have my own kids.
And in the evening, I met up with Alvin and Pui (from HK). I seriously think there is something going on between those two. I hate to go out in threesome. I swear I shall try to avoid this in the future. We had Mexican food before the movie (Dante’s Peak). I kind of like the visual effect but I don’t think they appreciated it at all. Too picky.
I suggested to take a walk to the Eiffel Tower but it was not lit up at all. We wanted to have a drink but there wasn’t any at that area. We then went to Rue Montmartre (near their hotel) and had a drink. It was a Karaoke Bar and I had a beer.
Too much alcohol nowadays and I do have craving for alcohol. Kind of scary, isn’t it?
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In the Dark?
This afternoon I called up Benny and found that he has not read my email that was sent to him more than 2 weeks ago. And he told me that all the family members were in the dark not knowing what was happened between me and her sister. Too me, it is really over. I shall not approach her again and beg for her love. Maybe if she does it, I may have a second thought.
This evening, I met up with the BNP team. Had a very long dinner and had a drink. I nearly missed my last train (4 min). Lucky me. Otherwise, I wouldn’t want to walk.
And this morning, this French Lady called me and asked if I am free tomorrow for a lunch. Why not? She has 2 kids and a boyfriend. I hope it would be interesting. For that, I will miss the BNP team in La Defense.
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First Time I Gave Training
Today was the big day for me because it was the first time I gave training. I have always wanted to give lecture and so on. And finally it came true. I thoroughly enjoyed it. Funny thing was at some point in time, some of my clients actually feeling very tired but I hoped I have made it interesting enough to keep them awake. It was after all, a very good experience.
And I have bought the Bee Gee’s new album. I love the song “Alone”. Kind of suit my lifestyle right now.
Claude took me to a restaurant and told me that it would be good. It was Fauchon. There was one in Singapore (Christmas diner, remember?) The atmosphere was very good. Very yellow and light colored. Candles and large plants. And it was very expensive too.
Suddenly feel very tired and feel like falling sick again. Oh, no.