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Weekend in Singapore

Gone back to Singapore for the weekend.  Living without time is really something like “break the habit”.  More or less, I have achieved what I wanted to do in Singapore.  How much have I spent?  I hope is something less than SGD 700.

I think I was very depressed over the weekend.  Even I went out with Annie on Saturday, I was not happy.  But right now, I feel a lot better.  I have got what I want to have.  All my CDs and books, the kettle and coffee machine, all went through the custom.  I hope I will be happy for another six months.

After starting reading the book “Mars and Venus on a Date”, I realise that if I close my heart (i.e. still feel very sad over my last heartbreak), I will not be able to find anyone close “the right one”.  As for CC, I need to go through the 5 steps probably.  Or do I want to mess it up again?  I guess not.

Have a happy life in Jakarta, Wilfrid!

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Lost

I lost my watch tonight.

What happened to me this year?  I have lost my first girlfriend after 4 years of relationship.  I now lost my watch which has been with me for 4 years.

At that very moment, I am afraid of losing anything at all. In life, you just cannot take things for granted.  What if I lose CC?

Oh God, I just don’t want to think about it.

I need time. I just need time.

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Uncertainty

It has been quite a long time since I have become so moody during work.  There is so much uncertainty between me and CC.  Sometimes I cannot feel that loving feeling any more.  But why?  We went to Walmart together and it all seems to sparkle again.  I hope we can still ‘sparkle’ after her boyfriend has left.

God, I love that girl.

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Jakarta Not A Bad Place After All

What an interesting weekend. I went off alone to venture Jakarta.  After all, it is not such a bad place.  Went to Gym and met with CC and her boyfriend.  Man, I miss that girl.

Called up JP and had a nice chat (in Cantonese) …

Wonder what will happen between me and CC.

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I Go Crazy, I Know That Much Is True

Long time haven’t logged down what I have done.  Well, I just go crazy over CC and I hope she loves me too.  Besides the … I have in my life, we feel very happy and comfortable with each other.  Just that her boyfriend has arrived in Jakarta, I seldom get to hold and kiss her.  And I really miss her nowadays.  Last night I could not sleep.  Life has once again become so unpredictable.

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On This Day I Was Born

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

Yep, my birthday.

Had a few birthday emails and the ladies in our team have bought me a birthday cake.  Also had a lunch appointment with the BUN (functional?) team.  A very nice restaurant serving Indonesian food.  I was travelling with two ladies (even eating) and it was easy at all.  Must try to be fair to Balqais and CC.  Hence when I took food, I served the left and right first (or right and left).

And at night, I dined with CC. Just the two of us.

Many reasons to love here.  Many.

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I Now Fall and I Will Lose

Tonight (after midnight already), I turned 1 year older.  And I was with CC.  Neither one of us realised that, of course.

For the whole day, I have been thinking of her.  I think I have already fallen in love with her and in less than a week’s time, I will lose her again.

The start of a heartbreak is coming, how nice.

Such a confusing situation. 

Sigh.

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On This Day, I …

Two days before birthday and I have committed one terrible mistake.

I …

But CC and her boyfriend really love each other.  She intends to marry to him.  Oh, what have I done?

But I do love her.  Does that count?

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On This Day I Fell

Okay, how shall I confess?

To confess the wrongdoing of my heart or the wrongdoing of my soul?

I have just followed my heart and that is what I end up with.  Knowing that CC has a devoted boyfriend, going to see her very soon, how could I end up in …

Knowing that this well is so deep that a step forward will end up dead at the bottom, why would I just fall in love, like that again?

Must be – using one pain to cover another one.

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On This Day We Watched TV

This weekend, I have spent a lot of time with CC.  I feel myself strongly attractive to her.  But she has a very devoted boyfriend and I shall never even think about that at all.

Saturday night, she stayed at my apartment and watched TV together.  We chatted quite a lot and … what a pity.  Must be from the complex family background.