Last night I slept very late having online chat with a lot of great guys. Somehow we went into the topic of writing literature, and this UK guy “Dead Calm” and I was talking about Swan Lake (one lady elegant, educated with American culture called Swan). And we wrote a lot of stuffs online. Finally I posted one of my message “Death Marriage” out and some guys even chatted with me privately and asked me who is author and so on. I was so thrill and was really in joy.
Towards the end, I was chatting was an American woman and she suggested to have phone sex today. And I didn’t call.
Therefore, I woke up feeling pretty bad. Logged onto Notes and found that the office rejected my holiday plan (of paying). Even I was worried that I do not possess a valid visa to USA. What a bad day!
One more thing, a very bizarre dream. I dreamt of visiting my ex. I knocked onto the door and found two women inside her room. It was kind of an authentic place. Small room with wooden furniture. A small bed with bed light. A table and a very decent window. It must be evening. I asked for my ex. One of the women asked another one to leave the room and vaguely she (the one who remained in the room) told me that my ex had left and would not want to see me.
Then she told me I can sleep on the right side of the bed while she would talk the left side. And suddenly a drop dead beautiful (white) lady who dressed like an angel came into the room. Talked to me but I hardly remember what she said! All I could remember was she was very pleasant.
And she left the room. My ex walked in. She looked so thin! And she sat down by the bed. I sat next to her and began to chat. And she looked darker as well. I touched her fingers and all a sudden, I found that she was actually me!
And I woke up.
I asked Mohamed and he has no answer for me.
Today I told Mohamed in a very convincing voice: I want to go home. Really, I am tired of being in Paris. I miss JP a lot. Tonight after a dinner at my favorite restaurant, I thought of buying my friends presents (budget FF1,000) and I want to buy JP one too. Oh, I miss her. If only life works out differently.